tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41136624605553959192024-03-12T16:51:21.863-07:00The Depth of LifeThe Christian’s task is so far as he is able to fill the structures of the world with the boundless spirit of love and reconciliation, despite the fact that he will always encounter opposition to his efforts toward this end.
-H.U. Von BalthasarFr. Alex Zenthoeferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12850438954960946162noreply@blogger.comBlogger15125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4113662460555395919.post-20034677257427853622020-04-07T13:15:00.000-07:002020-04-07T13:18:21.548-07:00Becoming truer and more human<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">The most vocalized struggle for Catholics where restrictions on gatherings and mobility have been instituted in this time of pandemic is the inability to receive the Eucharist and participate in the liturgy. That desire has been partly addressed by various parishes by live streaming Masses, digital devotions and a noble, yet inevitably and admittedly insufficient, attempt to fill the void created by the physical deprivation of gathering as community.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">This pandemic has also revealed that there is more for us to learn about the nature of the Church and what it means to “be together” and to share in the life of Christ in the Church. Fr. Luigi Giussani* highlights three “constituent factors” of the Church: that is, three elements that make up its nature and essence. It would serve us well to review these factors. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">The first factor is perhaps the most obvious: it is a sociologically identifiable community. Throughout the Acts of the Apostles we see this community of believers manifesting itself in a visible way, for instance, on the steps of Solomon’s Portico in the Temple (Acts 5:12). It is a visible, living community “of one heart and soul” (Acts 4:32). The first Christian community was something one could run up against, encounter on the street and engage in conversation. It was not just a community that could be talked about as an idea, but as a community that could have been photographed and witnessed.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">The second factor, says Giussani, is that Christian community is invested by a “strength from on high.” It was evident in those first Christians that they were aware that their being together was not merely the result of agreeing on certain things or because they had a natural affection for each other, but because they had been bound together by the person of Jesus Christ through the gift of the Spirit. They had been seized individually by Christ and formed into a people that could not speak of itself as existing for any reason other than Him. Romano Guardini writes, “Pentecost is the hour the Christian faith was born, the moment of being in Christ; not because of a mere ‘religious experience,’ but by the hand of the Holy Spirit.” It wasn’t their ability to hold on to Jesus or cling to a memory that bound them together, but the active and ever-present movement of the Holy Spirit.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">The third factor is a “new type of life” that presented itself on the human stage. This new type of life was made possible by a single reason for living—Jesus Christ. In the words of Fr. Giussani, “If we share the meaning of life, we share all things in life.” This unity with Christ was not merely as an assent of the mind but was the ultimate reason for all their activity and gave order to their lives. It generated what is called koinonia or communion. Such a communion finds its expression fundamentally in hospitality, teaching and seeking out the truth, ritual celebrations, the hierarchy, missionary zeal and living in fruitful tension with Christ, called morality. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">It is most natural for us to perceive of our identity as Christians on the sociological level, because it’s the most accessible. It is a specific place where there are particular people with whom we share our lives. In these days we find that the possibility of doing so has been temporarily hindered: to gather in large groups is illegal and dangerous in nearly all of the United States and in most parts of the world. The temptation is to attempt to maintain that sociological identity on the digital platform: to simply shift everything to that level because it is the level of belonging that is easiest to maintain. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Yet, how much do we miss if we do not allow our circumstances to shift our gaze to these other dimensions of the Church? It would benefit us greatly to beg for the gift of the Holy Spirit to provide a type of unity that isn’t possible even when we are together physically. It would be a fruitful exercise to examine our lives and ask if, in fact, Christ is our reason for living and how that finds daily expression in our lives. It could be a step of sanctification to consider how we use our time and how we bear the memory of Christ throughout the day. These are things that we take for granted when we are gathered together in our churches, sitting our pew, surrounding ourselves with people that we prefer, in a parish that we’ve chosen, at a time that is most convenient. If I may be bold, it is good for us to suffer this temporary loss because it shakes us from our torpor. It is good for us to feel the pain of not being able to be together or to receive the Eucharist. And it is good for us to allow that sadness to help us understand the full embrace of the Church. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">After describing the above-mentioned elements of the Church, Fr. Giussani tells us that his reason for doing so is “so that today they will still inspire self-questioning, pushing us on to a personal comparison from which our lives will surely emerge richer and fuller, that is to say truer and more human.” Is this not an opportunity for such a comparison? Perhaps this pandemic provides us with the space we need to do such a work—the work of immersing ourselves more fully into the deep and profound life of the Church: all for the sake of becoming truer and more human.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">*Hewitt, Viviane, translator. <i>Why the Church?</i>. By Luigi Giussani, McGill-Queens, 2001.</span>Fr. Alex Zenthoeferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12850438954960946162noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4113662460555395919.post-20540890194689013062020-03-25T20:01:00.002-07:002020-03-25T20:01:23.883-07:00Dealing with solitude<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This morning after celebrating Mass I took a quick walk around the block. I’ve been very cautious about interacting with others since I’ve returned from overseas travel and today was the first step out of the house since my return.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I went half a block and passed some teenagers on bicycles who said quite loudly and with evident pride: <i>Man, we’ve got to find somebody and smoke some weed</i>. I don’t know what followed that, but it struck me as disturbing in our quaint little neighborhood. It was the attempt of these two, at least for me to hear, of dealing with solitude: the isolation that COVID-19 has brought to us.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It makes me wonder what we do with this time. What are you doing these days? If you are under a stay-at-home order or not, what are you doing during these days? I will admit that it has been a challenging transition to come back to the United States where it’s very easy to be pulled back into the world of work. But I am doing my best to remain in the reality and the spirit of my sabbatical (which is still happening, by the way!).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">If work (or substitute school if you are of the younger variety) offers us one thing it is order. There is a set time we get up and go to work. There are certain things that we do throughout the day. There are conversations we need to have and people we need to check in on. Work offers us a sense of order, even if we don’t like it. And it is a good thing for us, because our lives need order. They need to be structured towards something fruitful. <b>So, question 1 is this: what is your time ordered toward these days?</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Prayer seems to always be the first thing to go. When life gets distracting and other things are more pressing, prayer is almost always the first thing to go. It’s the first thing to go because it seems to lack practical consequences that make a difference on our immediate circumstances. But prayer is a gesture of dependence. And if this virus has taught us anything it is that it is beyond our control: all we can do is follow instructions and hope that those in the medical field can find an appropriate response. But for the vast majority of us, we are left in the position of begging: begging that people are responsible; begging that our loved ones are kept safe and healthy; begging that we can find a reason for all that is happening to us and around us. For this reason, prayer should be the first thing to stay. <b>So, question 2 is this: how has your prayer life been these days?</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Loneliness is a battle for every human being. I’m coming to the end of <i>The Heart of the Matter</i> by Graham Greene (and if the basketballs ever stop bouncing outside my house I will finish it...my apologies for that aside). In it, the lead character, Scobie, says this from a place of despair:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Sometimes it’s not the absence of people that makes us lonely, it is the absence of hope. Scobie is alone because he sees no way out of the dramatic situation he has gotten himself into. Hope is not just the expectation of what is to come, it the ability to acknowledge that even now, in whatever mess we may be in or our world may be in, we hope in a present Presence. There is Someone who cares about our destiny, about our hearts. <b>So, question 3 is this: in what or whom do you place your hope?</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Friends, isolation does not mean loneliness and being together does not imply companionship. What we need is something greater, something that emerges from within us and finds its ultimate expression (in time) in communal life. Escaping our circumstances through drugs or binge-watching or porn or constant texting is not an adequate response to what our hearts are made for. So let’s look for order, prayer and hope in our lives today. Maybe somewhere in there we can find ourselves becoming more human and more holy.</span>Fr. Alex Zenthoeferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12850438954960946162noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4113662460555395919.post-68505858820776632812020-03-18T13:07:00.000-07:002020-03-18T13:09:11.881-07:00Light and Resurrection<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">As I settled into the Bealey Hotel yesterday in Arthur’s Pass I came to the end of the novel <i>Resurrection</i>, by Leo Tolstoy. As with <i>Anna Karenina</i>, Tolstoy doesn’t spare the reader any of the drama endured by the characters or the painful interpersonal struggles they need face. It was only this morning that I came to appreciate more fully the meaning of such struggle and the novel’s title, <i>Resurrection</i>.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I watched the sunrise this morning over the mountains (I apologize for being the cause of any jealousy). Before the sun crept over the horizon there was just a hint of color in the sky, a deep red outlining the profile of the dark mountains. And little by little the clouds above the horizon turned burnt orange then faded to yellow and the surrounding landscape moved from pure darkness to that phase of light where you can distinguish between tree and rock, but can’t see any of the detail. As I’m typing this, the sun is rushing into my windows and illuminating the northeastern side of the surrounding hills. Throughout this day, as this light makes its way across the sky unimpeded by the clouds, it will make visible what had been hiding in the shadows. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">This was the path traveled by Nekhlyudov (Nekhlúdoff) in Tolstoy’s <i>Resurrection</i>. With each turn of the page Nekhlyudov meets a new injustice that he seeks to correct, both in himself and in his native Russia. It’s fascinating to watch how his awareness changes, how the light of the circumstances that he’s forced to confront show him things that he had either previously ignored or had not seen. Only after this light of awareness ran its full course across the sky of his experience did he discover a new reason to live, a new object to follow. He becomes a new man, a new creation precisely because he follows what is happening around him and within him.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><i>Resurrection</i> is the story of one man’s awakening and the journey needed to arrive there. We don’t have to create the drama so marvelously described by Tolstoy; we have plenty in our lives. The challenge is to look at all of it in the light: to grow in awareness of what God makes happen. Particularly in these days when many of our circumstances are clearly out of our control, we can ask whether we are merely pushing them back into the shadows or if we are willing to look at them for what they are—as given. What are we hiding in the shadows? What newness we could experience if we brought it to the light!</span>Fr. Alex Zenthoeferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12850438954960946162noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4113662460555395919.post-45073262820567598942020-03-16T22:33:00.002-07:002020-03-17T10:26:19.904-07:00An Impossible Unity<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I have not blogged for a few days, not because nothing has been happening, but it’s been tough to find the right time and the right Wifi connection to get it done!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">This evening (my Tuesday evening, your break of day on Tuesday), I was celebrating Mass in the shadow of the Franz Josef Glacier on the West Coast of New Zealand’s South Island. If you promise not to laugh at me I will tell you that I did so with tears in my eyes, because I thought of all the things that I have seen there is nothing that compares in beauty to this tremendous gift. And I am aware that throughout the world there are now many Catholics who are not able to receive this gift due to the Coronavirus. This evening I remembered you.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">There was a line from the first reading from the Prophet Daniel:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">We have in our day no prince, prophet, or leader,</span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> no burnt offering, sacrifice, oblation, or incense,</span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> no place to offer first fruits, to find favor with you.</span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> But with contrite heart and humble spirit</span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> let us be received;</span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> As though it were burnt offerings of rams and bullocks,</span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> or thousands of fat lambs,</span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> So let our sacrifice be in your presence today</span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> as we follow you unreservedly;</span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> for those who trust in you cannot be put to shame.</span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span></blockquote>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Perhaps for many Catholics it is not possible to physically participate in the sacrifice of the Mass: to make that offering to the Lord. But as the Prophet says, so then “with contrite hearts and humble spirit let us be received.” In other words, let this be our offering and let this offering be as if it were “rams and bullocks, or thousands of fat lambs!” Let this be our offering: an offering of our hearts to the Lord. If we cannot gather physically as God’s people at the Eucharist, then let’s be united with hearts that are directed towards the single goal of acknowledging the Presence of the Lord where we are.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I want to point out two things that the Eucharist teaches that we should not lose just because we may not be able to attend Mass: <b>obedience and mercy</b>. Obedience teaches us the virtue of humility, because in the sight of God’s power we are dust: a lesson this season of Lent clearly reminds us of. Obedience to the Lord opens us to the grace that heals us. This is not a public service announcement for the CDC, but our obedience to what is being asked of us by public officials while this virus is contained is for our good and for the healing of the world. If we cannot learn obedience in simple ways and adapt our behavior because of our circumstances, then how will we ever learn obedience to the Lord Jesus who calls us to be perfect as His Heavenly Father is perfect?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">The second lesson of the Eucharist is mercy. We cannot stop begging the Lord for mercy during this time. Every morning, every prayer, every opportunity we have should be filled with a plea for the Lord’s mercy on the world. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Being together in obedience and in mercy, we can experience a unity that seems impossible in the face of necessary social distancing. Christ alone is the unity of humanity. Christ alone through the Spirit holds us close to the Father.</span>Fr. Alex Zenthoeferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12850438954960946162noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4113662460555395919.post-60117971988437501412020-03-11T01:06:00.000-07:002020-03-11T01:16:39.637-07:00Because it’s life<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">After a conversation with a friend tonight, I am much more aware of how we can find ourselves in situations where there is not much to do or to say. Sometimes we are simply left to recognize that life is given for the sake of our maturity...so that we can grow as human beings and become more ourselves, more the people that God has made us to be. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Perhaps there are some who greet each day with sadness, with a question of the value of life and if it’s worth rolling out of bed. One of the great things that my dearest friends have helped me to acknowledge is that, as a human being, I am filled with need: a need that I cannot on my own fulfill. And rather than running from that need, I’ve come to see the beauty of hearing others express it in a way that I could never dream of doing. And so my need has become not a problem to solve, but the doorway through which I can discover the real genius of others.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">For me, this <a href="https://youtu.be/xi49yirJiEA" target="_blank">song</a> by Charles Bradley has been one that has captured well the sentiment of what I find myself experiencing. It’s not the precise lyric that I find so accurate, but the feeling behind it...the longing, the struggle, the hope. I encourage you to give it a listen. The other song that moves me every time I hear it is by Mumford & Sons. You can listen to it <a href="https://youtu.be/KpcBjt8Wqg8" target="_blank">here</a>. It’s a song that makes me want to move, to keep searching and keep moving because of the fact that I am made for something greater. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">We are all searching, all longing for something greater. And if we take this need seriously without trying to distract ourselves from it or drown it with something else, it can lead us to discover a solidarity with others even when we feel only solitude. We are not alone. I am not alone. You are not alone. It is our common search for the truth of our being that draws us together. </span>Fr. Alex Zenthoeferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12850438954960946162noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4113662460555395919.post-10763013525009418152020-03-08T22:20:00.001-07:002020-03-08T22:25:14.716-07:00False Freedom and Hopeless Happiness<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Painful, I think, is the best way to describe my reading of <i>Brave New World</i>...no matter how beautiful the coffee shops where I read it! Painful because what is most essential to the human, what is most correspondent to the human heart is squelched with the aim of false freedom and hopeless happiness. As with most dystopian novels, it’s done for a “better purpose”, a man-made model for generic human fulfillment.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">The Savage, the ironically-named character created by Huxley to offer a true form of civilization to a world sterilized against it, reaches a point of brilliant clarity and authentic desire when he exclaims,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">A world anesthetized by illusion and drug-induced euphoria can’t compete with the great drama of the human person searching for meaning and purpose. Because that drama necessarily entails all that the Savage lists and more. To desire God, to search for what ultimately gives meaning to one’s life is to embrace the sometimes complex beauty of poetry alongside the usually difficult phenomenon of freedom. To seek after what is good also means confronting the ever-present reality of sin. In order to experience surprising and unbridled awe in the face of something unbelievably beautiful, it means we must also face the sadness that creeps in when such beauty eludes us. Because it’s in that struggle that humanity flourishes and falls and is authentically free.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">This is why the one who is authentically human is not in search of a utopia, but a Presence that directs our gaze towards what we really desire.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Our brave new world is not one defined by the limits of human ingenuity, but it is one that is generated anew each day by a Presence who calls us by name and exalts every ounce of goodness He has placed within us. This is our reason to get up every morning. This is our invitation to a brave new world!</span>Fr. Alex Zenthoeferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12850438954960946162noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4113662460555395919.post-34125070970030090902020-03-07T20:13:00.000-08:002020-03-07T20:13:19.023-08:00A Functional Life<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Yesterday I started reading <i>Brave New World</i> by Aldous Huxley. A friend <table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="float: left; margin-right: 1em; text-align: left;"><tbody>
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related to me the not-so-fun fact that Huxley died on the same day as C.S. Lewis and John F. Kennedy: November 22, 1963. The novel, which I’ve barely begun is dystopian, similar in feel to Orwell’s <i>1984</i>. It’s the focus on function that I find terribly disturbing, perhaps because we’ve adopted a bit of this mentality ourselves.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">In fact, being on sabbatical has challenged this aspect of priesthood in a good way...at least so far it’s good! It’s tempting to view priesthood as purely functional: as filling a role in the Church as Sacramental functionaries, doling out the Sacraments to the hungry faithful. I don’t doubt the need for that service, but surely it’s not sufficient to establish an identity as priest. If that were the case I suppose I would be less of a priest for administering fewer Sacraments during this time of sabbatical. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It’s been an occasion for me to ask: so what is a priest at rest? What is a priest in the silence? What is a priest during free time? What is a priest not constantly on the move with a fully-filled calendar? The easy answer would be <i>a priest</i>. But after living in a culture where function defines dignity and where ability connotes value, it’s almost as though we say it with a cheeky wink and nod. And I believe this is the case because we as a culture have chosen to focus on our ability rather than on the choice of God. I am not a priest because I willed myself a priest; I am a priest because God chose me. And my dignity comes not from my ability to do priestly things, but it comes from the fact that God chose me. It is God’s work; the <i>expression</i> of my dignity comes as a response to that work.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The measure of dignity is not our capacity or our activity, but it is God’s election: <i>It was not you who chose me, but I who chose you to go and bear fruit that will remain (Jn 15:16)</i>. There is nothing for me to prove (I think this is the hardest bit of truth to grasp) because it was not for my goodness that I was chosen, but it was by God’s choice according to the measure of His mercy.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">In the end, we belong to God. That is our dignity and our destiny. It is the starting point for every act of charity and every human effort. We belong to Him. There’s rest to be found in that fact.</span>Fr. Alex Zenthoeferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12850438954960946162noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4113662460555395919.post-55831382634458203892020-03-04T18:32:00.001-08:002020-03-04T18:32:56.384-08:00Desiring Freedom<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The greatest violence is not achieved through blood, but through destroying what is most essentially human. I finished reading today <i>The Quiet American</i> by Graham Greene. Honestly, I picked it up because I find myself as the quiet American wandering the streets of New Zealand! It’s a novel set in Vietnam just before the United States was drawn into the war. That context provides all the necessary violence and crudeness of war, which Greene himself experienced as a correspondent there in the early 50s. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Yet, in the midst of that storm of confused human wreckage, the reader’s attention is drawn to a story of love (though perhaps that’s a degradation of the term) that two men have for a Vietnamese woman named Phuong. Pyle with his ideological naïveté and Fowler swamped by cynicism awkwardly vie for the attention of this woman even as the bombs fall and grenades wreak havoc around them. Though I’m no literary critic, Phuong seems to be Vietnam itself: shelled by ideology and abused by the bloodlust of power. In the end, all she wants is freedom: for someone to take her to a place where she can walk the street without fearing for her life.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It makes me wonder about the effects of ideology; it makes me question my own temptations to cynicism and how it impacts those around me. If you have a bit of time, I might suggest watching this presentation from the New York Encounter, the event that began this time of sabbatical. You can find it <a href="https://youtu.be/1xhklalw9eE" target="_blank">here</a>. It illustrates well how sincere dialogue can break through ideology and how a shared humanity can stand tall in the face of cynicism. It’s not just for us: it’s for those we love who are simply looking for someone to show them the face of freedom.</span>Fr. Alex Zenthoeferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12850438954960946162noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4113662460555395919.post-2152825389855743302020-03-02T21:04:00.000-08:002020-03-02T21:04:14.765-08:00Experience and meaning<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">One of the great temptations of being in a beautiful foreign country is to join the legion of tourists hoping only to gather a collection of pictures and “experiences” so as to assemble a portfolio of novelties ready to be shared with those trapped back home. It’s a real temptation: not just in a foreign land, but in daily life. Ironically, filling life with <i>doing</i> things can reveal a great emptiness. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Today I read <i>Their Eyes Were </i></span><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><i>Watching God</i> by Zora Neale Hurston. It’s a moving story of a woman who discovers herself through love and the difficult path that such a discovery demands (though please don’t reduce the book to that insufficient epithet). Near the end of the novel the protagonist, Janie Crawford, relates this to her friend, Phoeby:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I find this to be a more useful description of experience: not assembling a montage of memories, but being in front of something with a desire to understand its value. I’m not advocating here the need to physically be in front of something to be certain of it, but the essence of what Janie says is true. Without risking ourselves in experience—subjecting ourselves to the fullness of reality to discover its true meaning, we are left disappointed and uncertain. It means I go out every day looking for beautiful things; AND it means I go out looking for the meaning of everything—for its infinite value. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">This step of what we could call judging something helps to move us beyond the appearance of things into a relationship with the One who makes all things. And as it was for Janie Crawford, it may not be an easy path for us. If I’m honest, it’s why these blog posts are probably more valuable for me than they are for you—I’m okay with that! I’m not in New Zealand to collect memories; I’m here to discover the same Christ who is present where you are...in reality. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">In the line from which the novel draws its name, Hurston writes, “They seemed to be staring at the dark, but their eyes were watching God.” It raises a valuable question for me: what do I stare at every day? Do my eyes settle on the appearance or are my eyes watching God?</span>Fr. Alex Zenthoeferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12850438954960946162noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4113662460555395919.post-41644633105217335312020-03-01T16:33:00.000-08:002020-03-01T16:33:43.934-08:00Karenina and the given<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Not wanting to give away the dramatic ending to Tolstoy’s masterpiece, <i>Anna Karenina</i>, which I finished today, I will just tell you that it’s worth your time. Not only did I find myself oscillating between sympathy and hatred for various characters, but sometimes for the same character. His way of dealing with the more profound questions of life certainly reaches its pinnacle in the end that cannot be reached except by making the whole trip. He doesn’t spare us even the smallest struggle.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">What emerged for me as the most salient point was the trajectory of various characters towards madness or openness. Those who remained open to an answer to the questions that so many others escaped only to end in madness, discovered in themselves something new: a newness that, as one character says, “...I did not arrive at in any way, it was given to me as to all men, <i>given</i>, because I could not have got it from anywhere.” Only one who is open, who allows oneself to be opened, can be able to receive such a revelation.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Providentially, this same thought was enunciated by St. Gregory of Nazianzen in this morning’s Office of Readings: </span><i><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: 122%;"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Recognize to whom you owe the fact that you exist, that you breathe, that you understand, that you are wise, and, above all, that you know God and hope for the kingdom of heaven and the vision of glory, now darkly as in a mirror but then with greater fullness and purity. You have been made a son of God, coheir with Christ. Where did you get all this, and from </span></span><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: 122%;"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">whom?</span></span></i><br />
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<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: 122%;"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">A life that is not open to the possibility of newness ends in madness, because the infinite desire of the heart cannot be repressed or shackled. Only openness, openness to the unexpected and unforeseen, can open the door to the depth of life. It is given...always given through life. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: 122%;">Tolstoy’s genius: <i>I looked for an answer to my question. And thought could not give an answer to my question—it is incommensurable with my question. The answer has been given me by life itself</i>. So into life we go, with all of our questions and curiosity: open to the answer that the Maker of all things holds out to us. The Answer that took on flesh and dwells among us.</span></span>Fr. Alex Zenthoeferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12850438954960946162noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4113662460555395919.post-29532554871907835642020-02-28T17:50:00.000-08:002020-02-28T17:50:12.008-08:00The responsibility of love<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Unintentionally, the last two novels I read (<i>Madame Bovary</i> and <i>Anna Karenina...</i>the latter I am still reading) contained women, those for whom the novels are named, whose marriages at some point went awry. Both women experienced a tremendous restlessness (Bovary on the very night of her wedding) that led them to seek something else that would fill the longing that marriage could not. And for both, great pain and an over-complicated life followed.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I reached a point yesterday in <i>Anna Karenina </i>when one of the male characters also wrestled with this point. He found himself slightly irritated by his wife. He had been called to tend to some personal business and she wanted to accompany him. Thinking that she would only get in the way, he refused. But she persisted: “Then why did you marry me? You could have been free. Why did you, if you regret it?” In the end, they went together and she brought a feminine tenderness to the situation that he did not possess.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">All this “novel” drama is to point to the fact that when need is shared and when longing is followed in community, particularly in the communion of marriage, it becomes fruitful. But this can only be if a sacrifice is made: a sacrifice to stay with what God has given. In simple ways it means being faithful to the challenges of everyday life: to sickness and sadness and joy and beauty. Fidelity to these things and to the people who surround us makes us capable of a greater love that we seem to think is always somewhere else.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This is the beauty of Our Lady. She was ever-faithful to the circumstances of life and she is faithful to us. She who embraced the Son of God embraces us in a communion that exalts every struggle and gives direction to every desire. How beautiful is Our Lady and how beautiful is her faithfulness to us!</span>Fr. Alex Zenthoeferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12850438954960946162noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4113662460555395919.post-8038290975587008562020-02-26T19:32:00.001-08:002020-02-26T19:32:39.731-08:00The More Loving One<br /><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">For several months now, I have had in my Notes on my phone this poem by W.H. Auden entitled “The More Loving One”. I can’t exactly remember why I copied it there, but today I read it again.<br /><br /><i>Looking up at the stars, I know quite well<br />That, for all they care, I can go to hell,</i></span><i><br /><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But on earth indifference is the least<br />We have to dread from man or beast.<br /><br />How should we like it were stars to burn<br />With a passion for us we could not return?<br />If equal affection cannot be,<br />Let the more loving one be me.<br /><br />Admirer as I think I am<br />Of stars that do not give a damn,<br />I cannot, now I see them, say<br />I missed one terribly all day.<br /><br />Were all stars to disappear or die,<br />I should learn to look at an empty sky<br />And feel its total dark sublime,<br />Though this might take me a little time.</span></i><div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">There’s a certain sadness to it: the recognition that were the stars to stop shining in the heavens one would learn to stare at nothing but darkness above. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But it’s the desire to be the more loving one that catches me. I would like to think that I am a grateful person: expressing my gratitude and being mindful of the gifts given. Still, I’m quite sure I am not the more loving one compared to the One who places all things before me every day. Quite regularly I walk by beauty without giving a second look; though I can’t be blamed for being incapable of the impossible task of absorbing the fullness of beauty present in each moment. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And yet there’s something still in me that wants to be the more loving one: the one who notices when a beauty that was there before is there no longer; the one who feels sadness for such a loss and still keeps looking for the newness that follows it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Though I know deep down that I can never be, still in front of the richness of reality, I hope that the more loving one might be me.</span></div>
Fr. Alex Zenthoeferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12850438954960946162noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4113662460555395919.post-53814839915911603182020-02-24T22:33:00.002-08:002020-03-01T18:53:51.717-08:00A mutual friend<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Fairly regularly it happens that I meet someone with whom I share a mutual friend. The realization usually comes after saying where I’m from or what I do. That look of hope comes across the face of the other person and they ask, “Oh, then you must know </span><i style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">N</i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">.” And the look on their face tells me whether it’s a good thing I know </span><i style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">N</i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">. or a bad thing that I know </span><i style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">N</i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">. That look says a lot. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">This evening I was in adoration at the seminary next to my temporary residence here in Auckland and as I was looking at Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament, I thought of Him looking at me and I thought of Him looking at all my friends wherever they are in the world. By sitting in front of Him in adoration I am, in some way, sharing in the gaze of Jesus: a gaze of tenderness that he shows to all those who look upon Him. He is our mutual friend.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I had the same thought earlier in the day when I was sitting along the shores of Devonport across from Auckland. It was a beautiful day with the sun dancing off the water and the sailboats gently rocking with the waves. And it occurred to me that the same Lord who holds these things in existence is also holding in existence the barge-traveled banks of the Ohio where sits the beautiful city of Evansville. In some way, to look at this bit of creation with attention and wonder, I am in some way brother to the one who sits in Evansville and does the same. It is the work of the same Lord and His tenderness is shown through both.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">The fact is that He is looking at me...always. With those eyes of mercy He is always looking at me through the visible reality He has created and holds in existence. If we can be friends in no other way, we can be friends in this: He is looking at both of us. His mercy is the same for us both. Perhaps we can spare a moment to look back in wonder.</span></div>
Fr. Alex Zenthoeferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12850438954960946162noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4113662460555395919.post-85812479624830625182020-02-20T22:41:00.001-08:002020-03-01T18:54:19.251-08:00The sabbatical begins<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">After 24 hours on some delightful airplane seats I arrived here in Christchurch, New Zealand. This is a brief stop as I make my way to Auckland on Sunday. Driving past the cornfields and golden fields of wheat, there is a striking resemblance to Indiana. Though with the mountains in the distance to the north and the ocean guarding the way to the south, the likeness fades pretty quickly. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I was greeted by my good priest friend, Fr. John, who has already been a gracious host to me and is helping me to get situated as the jet lag wears off. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Tomorrow I will start my roughly 34 hours of travel to New Zealand. This graced time of sabbatical—made possible by a <a href="http://www.cpx.cts.edu/renewal/about" target="_blank">Clergy Renewal Grant</a> through the Lilly Foundation—will be an opportunity for rest and renewal. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">For those who thought I started my sabbatical a couple weeks ago, you are not mistaken. This past week I spent time at the NY Encounter, a cultural event hosted by the movement Communion and Liberation. I would encourage a visit to the website of the <a href="https://www.newyorkencounter.org/2020-new-york-encounter" target="_blank">Encounter</a> and perhaps even watching recordings of the presentations on their <a href="https://m.youtube.com/user/NewYorkEncounter" target="_blank">YouTube channel</a>. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I will be spending this time with a good priest friend of mine in Auckland. My time will be focused on a few elements: (1) renewing my relationship with the Blessed Virgin Mary—a relationship that was profoundly fruitful in seminary and now needs my attention; (2) spending time reading good literature, which has always served as a great help to my preparation for preaching; and (3) enjoying the beauty of this distant land and taking better care of my physical health. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I’ve invited members of my <a href="http://www.annunciationevv.org/" target="_blank">parish</a> to join me in reading <i>33 Days to Morning Glory</i> as we prepare ourselves for consecration to Mary on the Annunciation of the Lord. More information can be found <a href="https://www.annunciationevv.org/total-consecration-to-mary" target="_blank">here</a>. I’ve also started reading <i>Anna Karenina</i> by Leo Tolstoy, the first on my list of books to read. I have tried not to create too long of a list of books so that I don’t get caught up trying to get them all read.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">As I pray for my friends and family and parishioners I leave behind during this time, I ask for your prayers as well.</span>Fr. Alex Zenthoeferhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12850438954960946162noreply@blogger.com0